Ouch!!!!

I’m getting my hair braided at an African braiding shop. If you’ve ever gotten your hair braided by “The Africans”, you know it’s VERY painful, it’s tedious, and you want to see how the end will look before they’re finished. I’ve gotten up, stretched, and have looked in the mirror at least 10 times since 9:00 a.m. $250 is a lot of money (to me), so I want to ensure that my hair is to my liking. As bad as I want to know how my hair will look before she finishes, I know it’s impossible. The only way I will see the end is when she get to the end. So, I just have to TRUST that she is skilled in her expertise, sit back, and let her work. Keep getting up to check my hair is only prolonging the process. (CATCH THAT.) 
With that being said, I’m reminded of the process that God takes us through sometimes to get us to where we need to be. It can, too, be a painful, long, and dull process. In the midst of THE PROCESS, we want God to reveal the end, but it doesn’t work that way- the only way to see the end is to get to the end….and the only way to get there is to keep going and trust that God knows EXACTLY what He’s doing- trust that He is skilled in His expertise. Yeah, it’s painful now, you’re tired, and you’re frustrated, but “the end” will be worth it. What you had to go through won’t even compare to what’s in store for you. 

If you are in the middle of a storm or if you’re in a “waiting period,” TRUST YOUR PROCESS! GOD KNOWS EXACTLY WHAT HE’S DOING. 

“Everything will be okay in the end. If things are not okay, then it’s not the end.”

Happy Sunday!!!!! ❤️

  

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Exit 14 

This morning, I was FORCED to take a different exit because of traffic. I had to take exit 14 instead of my usual exit 12- Sycamore View. Immediately I became frustrated because I have been doing so well with getting to work on time, at least for the last two weeks.After taking exit 14, I put my school’s address in the GPS and the arrival time was 7:17 a.m. Then, I became more frustrated. Surely, I was would “catch it” from my building administrators. We are required to be at work at 7:00 a.m. I took a deep breath, and said, “This is beyond my control. I will have a great day in spite of.”

As I continued to drive, the arrival time kept changing; at one point it reached 7:25 a.m. I knew then I had to make that phone call I dreaded- “I’ll be late.” As I dialed the school’s number, the call dropped. I dialed it again, the call dropped again. “Stupid Smartphone”, I thought. Since I upgraded to IOS 9, my phone has been doing some weird things.

Anyway, I thought, “Oh well. I’ll explain when I get there.”

I turned my music volume up and drove. I was determined not to let this affect my day. As I drove, I missed a turn; therefore, the GPS had to REROUTE again. “Jesus!!! Ugh!!”

The arrival time changed again; this time, it went from 7:25 to 6:58- a minute earlier than my initial route- taking exit 12- Glory to God!! Missing that turn was actually to my advantage- (CATCH THAT.)

At that point, I could not do anything but laugh. Here I am in an uproar about NOTHING!

My point? Sometimes, we get bent out of shape and in an uproar about NOTHING. Nothing is ever as bad as it seems. What seems random and haphazard is actually for our good. Although sometimes change is forced and it takes us away from our comfort zones and what we’re used to, if we’ll just relax and trust Him, He’ll get us to where we are SUPPOSED to be. See, I was used to Exit 12’s route; therefore, taking another route pulled me of out of a zone that was very familiar to me.

Trust His plans! He knows what’s best and He sees far beyond what we see. Sometimes He has to take us a different way to get us where we should be.

 

Have an awesome Thursday!!!! 

Just Be Beautiful! 

Have you ever had surgery of any kind…that requires the knife? Ouch! Right before you go into that surgery, your doctor has this diagram of a body where he draws and marks all over it. He does this for himself and for the other doctors and nurses who will be in the operating room. This provides a visual of where to cut and how the desired results should look- you know a “from this to that” type picture.
When I wasn’t happy with me, I would do just that. I would stand in the mirror and mentally make a surgery diagram daily. 

I would think if I had smaller breasts, less broader shoulders, a bigger butt, a smaller nose, clearer skin, and smaller teeth….I would just be beautiful. 

Each time my ex-husband would catch me doing this, he would tell me, “You’re beautiful”, but I only rejected the compliment because I didn’t think I was. I would even jump down his throat at times because I felt he was just being funny or he wasn’t being sincere. 

No matter how much others think you’re beautiful, until you do, you’ll never be able to see what they see. 

We’ve allowed the Nicki Minaj-s, the Kim Kardashian-s, and the Love and Hip Hop Altanta “Stars” to define what’s beautiful. We feel that if we don’t have the butts that poke ALL THE WAY OUT, the washboard tummies, and the shiny plump breasts, we feel aren’t beautiful. Don’t be deceived. if you sat in their dressing rooms or in on their doctor appointments, you’d see that trouble they’ve gone through to achieve this “TV look.” 

Transparent moment- I even had a breast reduction that I CLAIMED I needed because of back problems, but it wasn’t. I wanted smaller, shiny plump breasts that sit up and didn’t sag. I was so determined to “fix” me. I was so determined to achieve this “TV look.” I was so determined to just be beautiful….BUT even after the breast reduction, I still complained. I thought my doctor made them too small and I absolutely hate the scars the procedure left behind. After my breast reduction, I started tearing myself apart even more. I then wanted to get butt shots and liposuction in my arms. The only thing that stopped me was the lack of money. Lol 

And I guarantee that even if I would’ve done that, I still would’ve wanted to “fix” something else because being beautiful has nothing to do with what you see and more to do with what you feel and think. 

Being beautiful is a mindset. You know how I know? Because NOW, to me, I’m one of the most beautiful women I know….with the SAME skin discolorations, broad shoulders, flat behind, big nose, and big teeth….and you can’t tell me I’m not  humbly the ish! Ha ha! 

Embrace your beauty! Be your kind of beautiful. Love all of you, even those things you don’t like. Every morning, I awake, I look at myself and say, “Good morning, Beautiful.” ….and you should do the same. Sometimes, the only positive things you’ll hear about you are the things you tell yourself!

As my partner in Christ, Celeste, says, BeYOUTiful!!!! 

Be who you are, who you were designed to be and that itself is SO BEAUTIFUL!!!!!