Where is my order??

If you’ll tune your ears to hear God’s voice, He’ll speak to you through the simplest things and situations. Now this was just a simple Sonic trip, but the Holy Spirit dropped a powerful message.
I pray this speaks to someone. 
I was on an hour long call encouraging a friend who has been going through some trying times. While we were on the phone, she stopped at Sonic’s and after she placed her order, we continued our conversations. After about 15 minutes, she interrupted me. “Girl, these folks haven’t brought my order yet.”
I said, “Be patient. They’re coming. They are probably very busy.” 
So we continued talking and another 10 minutes passed. She, then, pressed the button again and told them that she had been waiting for at least 25 minutes and haven’t received her order.

I could sense the frustration in her voice. So I’m telling her to keep calm. 
They apologized and assured her that her order would be out.
We continued talking and after about 5 minutes, she said several cars that had come after her had gotten their orders and have gone. 
I kept saying, “Be patient. They’re coming.” 

(I’m the nicest and most patient with anyone who prepares my food. I just didn’t want her to keep pressing that button and then get a surprise in her Sprite. Lol)
So, 5 more minutes passed- No Order.

She pressed the button again and explain what happened, told them how long she had been waiting, and she needed her order.
They apologized and assured her that they would be out. She’s really upset at this point and I’m trying my best to keep her calm.

I’m saying, “Be patient.”

After about a minute, the manager brings her order, apologizes, explains, and tells her she doesn’t have to pay.
See, waiting worked out in her favor. Yeah she had to WAIT for a little but it was worth it in the END. (Catch that.)
The Holy Spirt spoke.
We’ve been praying and putting in requests to God. Because those things we’re praying for haven’t come, we’ve become frustrated, upset, irritable, and ready to throw in the towel. 

Then we make ourselves even more frustrated when we focus on the harvest of others. We see others getting their “orders” and assume God has forgotten about us…BUT we don’t know how long they have been praying. We see their glory, but we don’t know their story. We see their victory but we don’t know what battles they’ve had to fight.

Be patient. Your “order” is coming, not in your timing but in His! 
Just keep praying! Keep living according to His word! Be patient..and remain Hopeful! He has not forgotten about you. Yeah you’ve been waiting a while, but The end result will work out in your FAVOR!!!


Are you in the negative???

This just dropped in my spirit…for somebody. I pray it is received. You have a checking account balance of $19.26. 

(I chose $19.26 because that was my account balance when I moved to Memphis. I didn’t know how in the world I was going to make it, but GOD!!!!! I did. I have, and I haven’t missed a meal or bill. Stop doubting Him! He will do it!)

Anyway, back to what I was saying. You have a checking account balance of $19.26. You go to the ATM, enter your PIN, and withdraw $20.00. Most banks will let you withdraw it and add that $30 or $35 fee to your account which puts you deeper in the negative. If you’re with Guaranty Bank, they will even let you withdraw until you reach a LIMIT and just keep adding the fee for each transaction. Basically, they’re gaining while you’re putting yourself in debt. So in the end, you have to pay what you withdrew plus some. Then if you fail to pay, your account is closed, it is reported to the Credit Bureau, and you can’t open an account at any other bank until it is paid. (Please catch that.) 

That’s what it looks like when you constantly give and give and give and give. Others are benefitting, but you take that losing end of the stick in the long run. You do not have to accept being used. Please know that you are worthy of everything you give. You deserve the same love you show and give others. You deserve the same effort you put forth. The same level of loyalty and consistency you give should also be reciprocated. 
A person who truly loves and cares about you will not only withdraw but deposit as well. Stop driving across the world for people who aren’t even willing to reverse their cars out their driveways for you.
Know your worth! 
Food for Thought: What you allow, continues and what you put up with, you end up with.
And if you are a person who is constantly making withdrawals from a person but you are not depositing, stop. If the tables were turned, how would you feel????

A Trip Back…..

I just had a moment. I was sitting on the floor in the middle of my living room preparing to get my hour of exercise in. All of a sudden I was taken back to August, to my apartment in Greenville, J175. I’ll never forget J175- I developed a genuine relationship with Jesus there. Anyway, I was sitting in the middle of my floor then too. Same position. I wasn’t preparing to workout though. I had a face full of tears, a stack of bills in front of me, I was jobless because I had just resigned, and had just checked my bank account and found that the district I resigned from took over half of my last check. 

I was depressed, stressed, oppressed, worried, lonely- just a complete mess! I had been applying for jobs. The “right” ones weren’t calling. I was out of options. On that floor, I curled up in the fetal position, cried, and rocked myself.

In the midst of me crying, this sense of peace came over me that I can’t quite explain. Immediately, I jumped up, went to my prayer closet, took those bills and worries and released each one to Him- individually- and I’ll never forget I called each one by name. 

Rent, I release you. 

Job Security, I release you.

Entergy, I release you.

Sudden Link, I release you.

Family and friend betrayal, I release you.

Negative thinking, I release you. 

Fear, I release you.

Doubt, I release you.

I went down my list until I released each one. 

Here it is, June 19, 2015, I have this PEACE that I can’t quite put into words, I haven’t missed a bill or meal and still get to do some of the things I enjoy, I have a job that came with a salary increase and a PEACEFUL working environment, and have finally gotten to the point where I can start saving again.

Glory to God!!!!!

See, too often we allow what we see in the natural to make us doubt God’s promises. He’s with us even when it feels like He has forgotten about us. Release those things and people who are robbing you of your peace, joy, and sanity. 

This morning, instead of crying in that fetal position, I’m on my knees praising Him. He turned my pity into praise! He turned my worries into worship, and He took that mess I made and has made it my message. 

Trust Him!!! I don’t care what it looks like!!!!! My God is able to do the impossible!!!!!

This is for somebody. He didn’t take me back to that “moment” just because. Whoever that person is, I challenge you to release IT and trust Him!!!!


When we enter relationships with expectations to change a person, we’re not really attracted to that person…. but to who we want them to be.A lot of people have asked me what happened with my last “relationship.” 

“You all seemed so happy. I thought you all would last.”, they would say, “especially since you allowed it to make it to Facebook.”
“Well, we decided to just be friends.” Giving a generic answer and refusing to elaborate.
(I’ve asked his permission to post this because this is not only my transparency but his as well.)
When Davion first expressed interest in me, it was over a year ago. At that time, I had just gone through a divorce and really never gave him a fair chance. We exchanged numbers and made plans to go on a date but as the time came, I kinda pulled away. I knew I wasn’t in an emotional, mental, or spiritual place to give anyone anything.
The chance presented itself again a couple of months ago. He messaged me, we exchanged numbers….again… and we immediately clicked. I mean, the chemistry was crazy, we talked for hours, his mind is simply amazing, his heart and the way he gives so much of himself without expecting nothing is impeccable, the way he paid attention to detail won me over, the way he complimented me on my natural beauty made me feel like the only woman in the world, his sense of humor understood my sense of humor, the provider and man in him provided the security I longed for in a mate, and the little surprises he sent to my job were icing on the cake…
But there was one problem…for me, anyway…
He does not believe in God. (Many probably would say that this would have been a deal breaker from the start.)
Did I know this from the beginning? Of course I did, but I entered this relationship with the expectation to eventually change that. I thought that if He could “see” God in me, he would just believe.

That’s what it’s all about anyway right- to lead others to Christ.
Anyway, as we exchanged stories about our past and experiences, surprisingly, we had gone through some of the same things, suffered some of the same hurts, cried some of the same tears, and have been at the hands of some of the same betrayals. I thought that because people and past experiences had dealt him a bad deck, that this was the reason for his unbelief, but I later realized that it was much deeper than that. I thought that by showing him the same love that God shows me, I could win him over.
I even gave him a nickname in which he hated- “My Minus 1- He had everything that I ever wanted….except a relationship with God.
Now, let me just note this. He isn’t an evil person. He gives so much of himself- always putting himself last-, he cares for people deeply, and when he’s home, he drives around the city, picks up the homeless and takes them to get food and other things they need. 
As I said the chemistry was through the roof, so things started moving at a fast pace. The “I love you-s” came unexpectedly quick. We made plans for our future. It was our plans to marry as soon as his plane landed in August, shortly after, move to Hawaii, his next post, and live happily ever after. However, aside from “our plans, I had an additional plan of my own- to get him to BELIEVE by August.
As we continued, I think my plan became evident. He asked, “Are you hoping one day I will believe?” I ignored him and told him I didn’t want to talk about it. I knew being pushy and talking about it would only turn him farther away. Instead I continued to be who I am and prayed for Him, day in and day out. I wanted him to possess that same passion for God as I have. He then asked, “Does it bother you that I don’t believe?” I told him, “Of course not.” 
I lied.
It bothered me like HELL. Although he was all that other “stuff,” I knew I couldn’t marry a man who didn’t love God as much as I do. I knew I couldn’t spend the rest of my life with a man who did not share this passion.
….and he knew he couldn’t marry a woman who was as passionate about the “oppressor” as I am.
We knew that this would eventually turn into a game of Tug-of-War. So we decided to just be- to be who we are- and not try to make each other be something or someone who we are not. 
I knew I wasn’t giving up God and he knew he’ll never believe….
So we decided to be just friends.
Is he a bad person? Of course not.

Am I a bad person? Of course not.
We are who we are! 
My point is much deeper than my story.

My point is…

Stop trying to change people. It is beyond our human ability. Stop trying to force a person to be who you want them to be. We have to learn to accept people for who they are and make the decision to deal or not to deal. When we try to change people or when we want people to change, we only frustrate ourselves.
From him…

“Fall in love with the person at hand, not with the person you foresee them becoming. This is where the mistake is made. A genuine person is going to show you exactly who they are. Don’t create an image. There’s no need to develop a perception of them or what they could possibly be. Accept them as is, or not at all.”