Some may know this while others may not.
My mom had open heart surgery maybe two or three years ago due to a faulty valve which created heart murmurs. Heart murmurs are abnormal flow patterns. A valve that is not faulty is supposed to work as a door to prevent the backward flow of blood into the heart. Anyway, the doctors ordered that she have surgery on Feburary 14, 2012 or 2013. I thought, “Really? On Valentine’s Day?”… But I understood that this needed to be corrected ASAP. Otherwise, it could’ve led to congestive heart failure which is the heart’s inability to pump blood through the body completely…and when there is no blood being pumped, there is no life.
She had the surgery; she recovered well. Her breathing improved. She didn’t become as tired as quickly as she had in the past. She used to have severe swelling in her feet and hands. That stopped. Overall, her health improved. She even started making healthier food choices and exercising because now she understood that when her heart isn’t functioning the way it is supposed to, nothing else will. (Caught that?)
Her emotional and mental state even improved because she felt better.
During prayer and meditation this morning, I was drawn to my mom’s heart condition before surgery and and her heart condition after surgery. See, surgery was the doctors’ last resort. They monitored the condition before and attempted to correct the issue before it got to that point. Before the decision was made to have surgery, doctors instructed her to exercise, eat healthier, avoid stressing and worrying, avoid heavy lifting, and other things that would possibly help. I love her to death, but she did none of these things. Not because she didn’t value her health, but because change is difficult, for everyone. It is easier said than done. When we’re used to doing things a certain way and someone attempts to change it or correct it, we often rebel….because we like to think that our way is the right way and the only way. What the doctor ordered would have required her to make a lifestyle change. That meant she would have to alter her work day to fit in exercise, she couldn’t go eat at her favorite restaurants with her buddies, she couldn’t run a high- performing school as she had in the past, and she couldn’t stress and worry about her own children.
Doing what the doctor ordered would move her from her comfort zone and change her whole life, her day to day activities, everything!
I was then led to Proverbs 4:21-27, specifically Proverbs 4:23, “Guard your heart above all else, for it determines the course of your life.”
Some of us have spiritual heart murmurs. Spiritual heart murmurs occur when believers engage in complaining, gossiping, disputes, contention, & other evil activities. The doctor (God) has given you instructions (Bible). In 1 Thessalonians 5:22, He tells us to flee every form of evil. Then in Ephesians 4:31-32, it gets very specific. “Get rid of all bitterness, rage, anger, harsh words, and slander, as well as all types of evil behavior. Instead, be kind to each other, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, just as God through Christ has forgiven you.”
A lot of times, we refuse to follow those instructions because it goes against what we are used to and what we have been doing our whole lives. Fleeing every form of evil would require us to stop going places we used to go, to end some toxic relationships and friendships, to love those people who we desire so much to hate, to not engage in the latest gossip, to stop grumbling and complaining. Like my mother, it would require a lifestyle change and change is uncomfortable, BUT some changes we need to make determine if we live or die.
So my questions are, What are you feeding your heart & Who are you allowing to feed your heart?
Don’t die, spiritually!
What’s in your heart flows outward and determines the course of your life. Don’t prevent God from moving freely in your life because you’re consumed with assignments from the enemy! Don’t have a spiritual congestive heart failure or be required to have a “major surgery” for an issue that can be corrected through “minor” changes!
This is a HEART CHECK!!!! When that heart isn’t functioning properly, nothing else will.
Oh my my!
I’m very transparent, not because I want to but because I believe my life is not my own and God allows us to go through things to minister and be a blessing to others.
Somebody needs this!!
After prayer and meditation yesterday morning, I made a mental TO-DO list of things I needed to get accomplished at work.
Shortly after arriving at work, I was told that I had to administer a “mock test ” because we had a shortage of TAs (Test Administrators) and proctors.
I fought it initially because my mind was fixed on my TO-DO list.
“I’ve got this, that, and some more things to get finished. Isn’t there someone else?”
“Ms. Boyd, no. We really need your assistance.”
The boss spoke, so of course I obliged.
I’ll admit. I didn’t want to, and I wasn’t happy at all. Well, it’s not that I didn’t want to. I just thought that if I’m in a testing site all morning, I wouldn’t meet any of the deadlines.
Anyway, I picked up my testing material and waited on the announcement to report to the testing site….with an attitude. (Lol)
While in the testing site, I walked around and monitored my students while trying to get my mind off my To-Do List.
I was supposed to send an email by 11:30 to give my “Yes or No” to an opportunity that was presented to me two months ago- which was also a part of my TO-DO List as well. I had been praying about it and praying about it. So, I was ready to give my “Yes.”
So, that was also weighing heavenly on my mind because I don’t want to deviate from the path of His choosing. I want to ensure that the decision I made whether it was YES or NO was apart of His plan and will.
So as I walked around this almost unbearably quiet room monitoring the students while they tested.
I was drawn to this sign on that said “Be”. That’s all it said. I don’t know if it had something else with it at one point and has fallen down, but it only had “BE.” So I pondered on that “BE” for a moment. Psalms 46:10 came to mind, “BE still and know that I am God.” I asked silently, “Lord, are you trying to tell me something?”
I kept monitoring and soon after the students finished, I checked my phone and had a text with a link from a friend who knew nothing about the opportunity that was presented two months ago. I clicked on the link and the title of the article was, “Waiting on The Lord to move.” Then as I read, the content of the article spoke DIRECTLY to my situation.
I started shouting!!! One of my colleagues looked at me and asked what? I said, “Oh nothing.” Lol
See, I don’t believe anything happens by chance. Me being asked to administer that test yesterday morning was not a coincidence. God knew I would be so “wrapped up” in my TO-DO list that I would not hear Him speak.
He knew I need that “quietness” to hear His voice. He knew I was about to send that YES to that opportunity and deviate from His path!
God will wreck our plans when He sees our plans are about to wreck our lives! See, administering a test was not apart of my plans yesterday. My TO-DO LIST was. Those were wrecked first thing yesterday morning!
Then let me add, although I had to test the first part of the morning, I was finished with my TO-DO LIST by 2:00 p.m. Glory!!!!
So, be still….for a moment! You can’t hear God’s voice entangled in busyness! He may be telling you to go, but my answer yesterday was, “WAIT!” Whatever your answer is, you want to make sure you hear His voice!
Two of the worst things are- 1. MOVING WHEN GOD SAYS STAY…and 2. STAYING WHEN GOD SAYS GO!
I learned two things from that situation yesterday morning.
1. Go with the flow. The very things we fight could determine the course of our lives.
2…and never say No to your boss when He asks you to do something. His attitude hasn’t been the same since! Lol