I ALMOST ABORTED MY BABY…

Something has been placed on my heart to share. Someone, somewhere needs to hear this. Someone, somewhere has given something all that he/she has and still not seeing the results he/she desires. If that someone is you, then read on….
Fall semester of 2008, I had taken Praxis II about three or four times. I kept missing it by two points, three points, then one point. I was a senior at DSU with a 3.2 GPA and I couldn’t student- teach without passing it. I had become discouraged and wanted to change my major to Interdisciplinary Studies. Here I am with a 3.2 GPA and couldn’t seem to pass a test that seemed like a piece of cake to some of my classmates who had struggled throughout the program. I considered giving up on graduating from DSU…In fact, I considered giving up on graduating from college period.
Without having knowledge of it, one of my friends registered me to take the exam again. The only available slot was in Arkansas. I thought…He must be crazy thinking I’m going to drive to Arkansas and fail this test….AGAIN! I told him he had waste his money and that I wasn’t driving to Arkansas. POINT, BLANK, PERIOD! We argued, he gave me the registration confirmation, and his final words were, “It’s up to you.” As the test day approached, everything started going wrong. My mom was on me about something I had done as usual, my advisor called me in and suggested putting off graduation for a semester, my car was making an awful noise, I was going through a terrible break-up…everything was going wrong! The morning of the test, I remember making that two and a half hour drive ALONE crying the ENTIRE WAY. The person who was supposed to have gone with me backed out at the last minute. I arrived a little before 8:00. I prayed, went in and gave it my ALL…again. Truth be told, I wasn’t expecting anything different. About three weeks had passed and my advisor called me to her office. I was like, “Oh Lord, what now???” She told me I would have to call and get my scores by phone because the paper scores wouldn’t arrive in time and that I would have to call on speaker phone in her office so that she could confirm it to the program coordinator. I let out a deep sigh. As we dialed the number, the look on both of our faces said what we were thinking. We weren’t expecting any different than what we had heard the other three or four times. When I entered all the necessary information, all I remember hearing was “PASSED.” I cried, screamed, and I cried and screamed some more.
I said all that to say this…Don’t be discouraged and don’t quit. The darkest hour is right before dawn, and it’s often the last key in the bunch that unlocks the door. Ask a mother who has given birth; the pains get extreme RIGHT BEFORE the baby comes out. Don’t abort your goals or allow your vision to die!!!! Keep pushing!!!! Success is impossible without failing, and in some cases a couple of times…BUT that’s okay!!!!!! KEEP GOING…KEEP PUSHING !!!!!! DON’T YOU DARE GIVE UP!!! IT GETS GREATER LATER!!!!!!

IMG_6871.PNG

Advertisements

KEEP GOING!!!!!!!

About a month or two ago, I was driving home from a vacation and the drive reminded me of life…

It rained in spots; some spots harder than others. The clouds were darker in some spots than others. One time I thought I would have to pull over because I couldn’t see. Just when I thought the rain had cleared, I’d run into another rough spot. I found myself growing more and more frustrated after each patch of rain and dark clouds. I just wished the rain would go away. I started to think I should’ve waited and even considered turning around, but I kept going. After at least an hour or so, it stopped and the sun started to shine!
Isn’t life similar? We encounter problems and obstacles and just when we think we’ve gotten past one problem, another one appears. We get frustrated, and we want to give up and start to doubt if we can make it through. Then, we start searching for a way out instead of believing that God will pull us through.
But I’ve learned that if you just hold on, keep praying, and keep pushing, the “rain and clouds” in your life will move! You have to believe that it’s going to get better.
God has a way of making the sun shine after the rain.
Be encouraged!!!! ❤️
In his kindness God called you to share in his eternal glory by means of Christ Jesus. So after you have suffered a little while, he will restore, support, and strengthen you, and he will place you on a firm foundation. (‭1 Peter‬ ‭5‬:‭10‬ NLT)

IMG_6832.JPG

WHAT ARE YOU CHASING?

Oh boy, I’ve been here. At 26, I had accomplished every goal I had set for myself four years before that. I had married, I had a Master’s degree and was 6 hours away from an Educational Specialist, had saved a great deal of money, had nice cars, in the process of purchasing a home and trying to have my first child with my then husband, and had traveled a great deal but still felt empty. My friends would ask, “How do you feel empty when you have everything you want?” See, I was busy chasing this plan I had for my life, not God’s plan, and had placed God in an “emergency only” box. I only prayed when I needed something or when I hit a rough patch. It took me accomplishing everything to later realize that I really hadn’t accomplish anything- I didn’t have a sincere relationship with God! I am a living witness that true happiness is not found in your possessions. Here I am two years later at 28, I don’t have half of what I had then, but I’m content! I’m at PEACE! See, you can have the world, but if God doesn’t come first, you don’t have anything, not of value anyway! Have you ever looked at a person without much as far as possessions and wondered how that person can be so happy? 
Chase God! Keep Him first! Let your security rest in Him, not in what or who you have. Don’t idolize! Let developing a sincere relationship with Him come first and He’ll take care of the rest! ❤️

IMG_6722.JPG

PUSH!!!!!!!

Stop worrying so much about life. You’re not going to survive it anyway. Lol #LetGoandLetGod
A lot of us miss out on life because we are worried about things that are beyond our control. If it’s happening, it’s meant! Trust that God has you exactly where He wants you!
Remember – Before anything great is formed, there’s a process it has to go through. Like a mother giving birth- The process is painful- the contractions, the hours of labor, the pushing, but when the doctor places that baby in the mother’s arm, it makes it all worth it!
TRUST YOUR PROCESS! KEEP PUSHING! He hasn’t forgotten about you!

IMG_6622-1.JPG